insomnia! get the hell out of my life!

when i was still at my college year, not having a proper 5 hours of sleep feels like attending one of those latenight shopping disount where all the stuff can be purchased 50%-70% off the regular price, i'm excited to work on all the unreasonable tasks that're stuffing high on my working table, along with a bottle (or two-during those harsh harsh nites) kratingdaeng to seize the nite, a cup of coffee (imagine the amount of caffein running free inside my bloood at those times), i'm like a healthy patriot ready to go on a war. and i'm not even working for an amount of money.. doing it all with smile (and tears..and lots of anger most of the times)

i'm fine with not having my proper beauty sleep, i'm fine with working outside my comfy room, in a space filled with paints, papers, scissor, sketches and not having food at all during all the damnhardworkingnites, the silliest part is...the next morning i'd still be able to have five minutes bath and grab all my finished work to the nearest bus station, riding my way with all the chaos of jakarta's highway jam in the morning and still be proud to say to all my colleague sumtin like "could you believe it.. I'm finishing it all in just one night...i haven't slept at all!!" along with those statement, my friends were saying similar stuffs as well.. man..how we were so proud for not having a sleep at all, it's like... resting your mind just in a couple of hour is a sin to the unfinishes tasks.. staying awake at all times possible is assumed as one regular activity, just like having teh botol untuk semua makananmu..

those moments i mentioned above was 4 years ago..

today, it's 5 AM in the morning, and i'm gonna have a important meeting at 10 AM, imagine me sitting like a pig surrounded with pillows, nice cold air conditioning in my room, awesome music to heal my tight minds, i've finished all my workloads, yet.. I CAN'T SLEEP.. it's been 3 freakin nights!!
with all the ambience i've created just to have my five hours necessary sleeping time, it's just not working..yeah yeah..the dumbest thing is, i don't understand why this insomnia is attacking my life during nights when actually i have the time to sleep, i manage my work on time, i don't drink kratingdaeng no more, i've provided snacks to keep my body healthy (not in shape though-sigh-), vitamins as a substitute for the kratingdaeng, drink lots of water.. what else..

I NEED MY SLEEP, really i do... after experiencing a one sick sick day at work, going home and sleep is all i want.. sometimes i wish that i could be somekind of superhero who have the power to stop time and sleep as long as i want.. ahh..now that's heaven..

ah what the heck..this the last row guys..i'm gonna try to sleep (please be noticed that writing this post is one of my way to tempt the goddess of sleepiness to come my way...)
it's just a meaningless post (again..!) in about 4 hours front, my clients will notice my panda eyes and the eyebag hanging like a slice of orange below my eyes.. i'm gonna use the statement i used to say during my college years then.. but play with it a little..

"heyho client...you are absolutely brilliant, as a matter of fact it's just lke what you've guessed,
i haven't slept allnight!!! ahahahaha... it's okay....i'm a designer....

.....we don't sleep" *long sigh*